Thursday, June 30, 2005

Autumn's first haircut

I told you about Autumn and her new do.  Well this is the first picture I've been sent back.  She does look a lot more grown up, but I think it's cute, just like her.  I can't wait to take some new pictures of her when I go home.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Hope and Faith

I'm cat sitting this week for our church's cat.  I think I mentioned Hope before.  She was waiting for me this morning when I arrived.  I gave her a little love, let her go out twice today, and gave her a little treat.  Yes, I'm allergic too cats, but couldn't help playing with her and taking some shots.  It has been raining for days.  Seems  like it's going to be raining for quite a few. 

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

One year ago today

I had many different teacher’s during my lifetime, but one stands out in my memory from college.  He was a big, ex military, hairy psychology teacher and my first advisor in college.  He probably broke every rule and technicque if they have those to be a good teacher, but what I remember most is how much he loved us… and we loved him.  He always had a smile on his face.  He always made us feel good about ourselves.  He took a warm personal interest in us as students.  He gave us full attention when he had us in his office, and we gave him full attention in our classes.  Teacher’s are pretty awesome, they may not find fame, but they shape so many lives by the people they know and teach.  I have many teacher’s like that.  What made me think of this today, well for one thing a year ago this day I met someone that came into my life.  From the first time I saw him, there was something I saw that was familiar.  Something that I felt was supposed to be close.  I’ve never told him this but he reminded me of that teacher.  That teacher that at a time in my life I was very lonely, and he really made an impact on me.  At first it was the resemblance, then after I got to know him.  I saw more of him by the attention he showed me.  Sometimes its hard for me to accept a lot of attention.  I shun it, I turn away from it.  Maybe it scares me at times because I don’t want to lose it, like I’ve lost many other’s.  It’s been a wonderful year.  When I met him I was getting to know me really well.  Because that was about the only person I was spending time with.  I had withdrew from much of the things around me and shut myself off from much of the world.  I was able to love someone again, and let them love me.  It has been really wonderful, even though he never takes out the trash.  J   Remember singing that song as a kid.  “This light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine.  I feel like my light is shining when I’m with him.  I feel safe.   I feel happy.  I love you Mike!  Its been raining most of the day.  We went to our tree and took some pictures.  Am I cheesing or what?

Let Him move the stone

http://journals.aol.com/deveil/CelebrationofMyExhistance/entries/1360

 

I was reading my entry I had written about one of my ancestors, and re-reading it.  Something hit me that didn’t hit me when I had written it, it hit me over the head like the rock she was trying to move.  I thought about the stone that God moved, not the one she was wanting to move that had blocked the way.  But the one of His burial place.  I remember something about the women going there to anoint his body were worried about the difficulty of moving  the heavey stone that sealed His tomb.  But their fears were groundless.  It had already been moved.

So I started thinking, this is what she meant when she was talking about He will move the Stone, she was actual talking from scripture.  I’m sure the bible was probably something read a good bit. 

Makes me think of how we think of the difficulties so much in our lives, but each one can be overcome.  I remember when I was asked if I could have one thing what would I want when I was a little boy.  Well besideslots of spaghetti and paper to draw on.  It was faith.  I would say it, because I actually heard it in a sermon.  But now I think of it and I know that’s what we have to have.  So just like my great great great great grandma Rebecca Paulk said “God will move the Stone!”  So whatever it is that seems to be blocking the way, let your heart be cheerful, whatever difficulty you may face, “God will move the Stone”,  why because my 4 great granny said so.

Monday, June 27, 2005

Cemetery

We are not

forgotton

Parking meter of the flesh

tabernacles of the soul

prose by Derek

Railroad Tracks

I remember as a little boy of five or six standing on the railroad tracks, thinking that these tracks go over the entire world.  I thought back then it even went over the Ocean.  I used to fantacize about a world out there beyond the country.  I used to stand in the tracks and wonder if it went to the Ocean.  Now I think about those same railroad tracks.  The iron road across the United States.  I think about those Native American's as they watched there land be changed.  I also think of being a teenager and wanting to jump on one of those trains and an adventure.  It was always about an adventure.  Guess it still is.  I wonder what Autumn was thinking on these tracks? 

Sunday, June 26, 2005

Sleepy Sunday

We got up late and went to church.  Mike and Tony  met us there.  It was a good sermon as usual, Pastor Linda always speaks from the heart.  Today it was definately from the heart.  She read from her diary a year ago the day before her first day at our church.  All the wonders and hopes for our church and congregation.  We had lunch with Alan, Susan, and her afterwards.  Good food, good company.  Then we got home, I guess I was a little ill, not sure, but Mike and I got into a little bit of a spat, over something silly.  It's always something silly it seems.  But I do love him.  I hope he knows how much!  Something else pretty wonderful has happened.  I got an email from one of my cousins that has recently come out to his family.  I can only say it feels really good talking to him, and conversing with him on the phone and through emails.  Our grandfather's were brother's.  O.K. Jland prayers and good thoughts going out to him.  Glad our path's have crossed.  Can't believe it's Monday tomorrow already.  At least fourth of July weekend is coming up.  Three day weekend!