Scrapbook page

 A couple people emailed me and wanted me to put a scrapbook picture image on her, so here's one I'm using for my sister's wedding scrapbook I'm doing for her.  It's the flowergirl page of my neice Autumn.

Saturday church outing on the river

We had a great time yesterday at the church dinner over at Julie and Teresa's.   So much wonderful food, and just enjoyed time in the pool and talking with people.   I enjoyed sitting on the dock and just meditating for a bit.  Mike was the photographer and took some good shots I thought.  They took the boat out, and a small storm came.   A few of us went out for a while afterwards.   Today we had a nice day, went to church and went out to "Cool Moose: for brunch afterwards.  Then into a rainstorm for shopping.

quick entry

Thought i'd make a quick entry, TGIF, I'm home from work, Matt is coming over in a few to help Mike with some stuff on the computer.  Tomorrow we're going on a church bbq on the river over at Susan and Teresa's.   They are going to take the boat out, should be fun.  Other than that, not much, I made macaroni and cheese for tomorrow.  I'm going to be scrapbooking or something.   Mike surprised me and started cleaninng up the clutter, so I'm in a happy mood.  Everyone have a great weekend.

Mike

I havn't taken any of Mike in a while, took this one of him looking at a woodpecker yesterday.  I like this one of him.   He's still not to fond of me taking pictures of him.  He'll get used to it though. 

Looking back with a diffrent view today

I was thinking today of many happy memories from my childhood.  I think at times I visit those times when I was scared or hurt, and think that was my whole childhood,  maybe inside I wasn’t sad at all, what came out was happiness.  I think that’s what has always came out.  There may have been sadness in there like there is with everyone.  I guess we don’t have to look at those sad times  and say our childhood was sad.  Just thinking about my Papa singing in church makes me smile.  I enjoyed my world of make believe.  It was like being at Disney World everyday, and I really did see things that weren’t there and enjoyed trying to make my sister’s see it as well.  Yesterday was one of those days I think I was just feeling sorry for myself.  Guess that happens sometimes.  Today I’m able to look back and say I was happy, bad things may have happened from time to time, but I was able to be happy or at least come across that way.  I’m still that way today.

Monday thoughts

There once was a little boy whose life was filled with fear and uncertainty.  Much of his time was spent hidden in his bedroom with his books, comics, and drawing pads.  This littleboy escaped into a world of fantasy.  Most often he pressed his imaginary button to become invisible, or entered his time machine that would rendeer him invulnerable and take him to anytime on the planet.

As he grew into adulthood, he continued to escape from unpleasant realities.  Although he no longer relied on comic book fantasies to get him through, he found other ways to isolate himself.   He worked two jobs, found happiness in eating much or not eating anything.  Or he became obsessed with jogging.  Just before his 30th birthday, it dawned on him that hs ongoing escapes were keeping him trapped in that same bedroom of the past.  He realized that he wasnt really growing or getting anywhere, and that nothing would ever change unless he began dealing with his feelings, fears, and pain. It was time to stop running away, he saw, and to start living in the here and now.  I wrote this in my journal about three years ago,  yeah I still look back from time to time, nothing wrong with that.  I'm wondering if I am allowing myself to grow emotionally, or am I locking myself back in that room at times.   As Mike said to me the other day, you need to go see your therapist.  :)

Sunday afternoon

It's been a lazy day, we got up early and went to church.  Nice service, and one of the songs really touched me.   We've been laying around after church and the grocery store.  Mike has been working on getting all our pictures archived.  I've just been lazy mostly.  Back to the grind tomorrow.