I am here to tell you that you can get your heart back. But your going to have to fight for it. I want all wounds healed and strength restored. I'm a fighting. Today I've been sitting with my thoughts, ever changing thoughts. Sometimes thinking of the pain, but then something just saying let go. Don't hold onto the pain, just let go. I read Barb's journal yesterday, about seeing what is in front of us and being thankful. Things may get hard, but seeing what we do have and being happy with that. I am happy and I have faith things are going to even get better. It funny how some days I feel so lost in my journey and other's I feel like I'm right where I'm supposed to be. I've let my past hold me back so much. Not liking the person I was at one time, blaming things of my dad for not initiating me into life and my journey. But my heavenly father is taking me on that journey and providing for me what was missing. A hope seems to be rising up in me one that wishes I could draw something or paint something to show that feeling like my friend Judith. I don't want to dismiss this hope I want to do something wondeful with it. I think I have some pretty good things I can pray for tonight. I wonder if I have enough quiet times, I surly need my quiet times, in the early morning, or late night to think and pander about life. I've been whining lately, why me, why can't I get out of this hole I'm in financially. But maybe there's a lesson, maybe God is trying to teach me something. God I have faith in you and what your teaching me, I don't love you because I want you to make my life easier. ( Althought I do have those selfish prayers at time)
What questions have you been asking? Question to self, Have I been asking the right questions?