Saturday, December 31, 2005

Reflecting

I lay in the bed last night reflecting on the past year. I thought of all the times, the tender times of the heart, I thought of a peaceful mind, which I so long for. Both have something to do with quality, the quality of feeling and reasoning.

Here it is the last day of what has been a trying, sometimes beautiful, sometimes uneasy, joyful, and painful year for me. I look forward to dawn tomorrow and, as the days get longer, to begin to feel my way into newness. It is not strange though it is mysterious that our "New Year" comes at the darkest time in the seasonal cycle. When there is personal darkness, when there is pain to be overcome, when we are forced to renew ourselves against all the odds, the psychic energy required simply to survive has tremoundouse force. I did some self portraits today, I put myself in darkness although, I feel the light coming at sunrise as great as that of a flower pushing up throuch icy ground in spring, so after the overcoming, there is extra enerygy, a flood of energy that can go into creation. This morning I woke up feeling it, knowing it, trusting it.

7 comments:

rap4143 said...

Happy New Years!!!!
Betty

joolsinwa said...

so very deep, Happy New Year
~Julie

nightmaremom said...

Happy New Year!  May the new year bring all that you long for!
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barbpinion said...

Keep looking forward to the *dawn,* dear one. Each one offers opportunity to grow, to really connect with life. HAPPY NEW YEAR. I pray that this next year finds you more at peace, with both heart and mind together - walkiing a straight line. I always look forward to reading your entries.
Love you,
Barb- http://journals.aol.com/barbpinion/HEYLETSTALK
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cubbycub said...

WOW!!!!!!!! Happy and Blessed New Year and a side Note..DANG..all that lovely FUR!!!!!!!!!WOOF!!!!!!!!!!!

chrisuab said...

Today just feels like another day to me.  I should be more like you and reflect on 2005 and be excited about the new year.  

coy1234787 said...

You are just to cute ... not so sure I
understand the texture of the first photo.
Hoping that all of what you wish for will be
the least of what 2006 brings your way.
         Happy New Year!
           *** Coy ***