Wednesday Morning

The mere sense of living is joy enough.  –Emily Dickinson

 

I had a wonderful day as well yesterday.  A good work day, I had got so much sun running on Monday, that I decided I was going to try to tan in a tanning bed.  I got cooked like a lobster.  Some of my wobbly bits that I usually keep covered are burnt and itching.  J  I got some good exercise again yesterday.  Another good run, only about 3 miles.  It was just to hot to run another 5 miles.  So I cut it short and ran to the grocery store and got some fruits and vegi’s and coldcuts.  When I was running I was over by the fountain by the river.  They have those coin operated telescopes all over.  I thought about all the coin operated telescopes I’ve looked through here and in different cities.  I’ve seen some beautiful places.  I’ve always looked for happiness in my lifetime.  Almost like we look through these telescopes.  If you’ve ever looked through one of these you know the disappointment that comes when the timer clicks off, the eyepiece goes black, and we discover we’ve been looking in the wrong direction.

 

Yes, I’ve had some disappointing experiences in my search for happiness, many for the same reasons.  I was focusing on the wrong things.   Different things have equaled happiness to me in this lifetime.  I also realize that many of the things I thought would equal happiness did not.  I’ve written this many times before, happiness must come from within.  How do I keep getting off my truth and start thinking it’s something else.  I guess we all become convinced of this reality in our own way and own time.  Guess we all have to go through these disillusions one more time before we are ready to put in another quarter move that telescope and approach happiness from a different angle and a different point of view.  Mine seems to continually change.  Remember Derek, look within.