Thursday, July 29, 2004
I can't sleep
Can't seem to make myself go to sleep tonight, my mind is full as it is so many nights, I walked down to the beach and looked at the beautiful reflection of the moon on the Ocean, it calmed me some. I can't seem to get into words all that I'm feeling tonight. Am I sad? No far from it. Am I happy? Yes, very but, does there always have to be a but. Am I scared? Yes, I'm terrified. What are you scared of? Me. Who is this me that is trying so hard to get out, so hard to be known? Am I lonely? I have Baby here with me tonight so not really lonely. Ok maybe now I know a little more of what I'm feeling. Baby is laying in the bed, waiting for me to come back to bed. I think I can sleep now.