Thursday, July 29, 2004

I can't sleep

Can't seem to make myself go to sleep tonight, my mind is full as it is so many nights, I walked down to the beach and looked at the beautiful reflection of the moon on the Ocean, it calmed me some.  I can't seem to get into words all that I'm feeling tonight.  Am I sad?  No far from it.  Am I happy?  Yes, very but, does there always have to be a but.  Am I scared?  Yes, I'm terrified.  What are you scared of?  Me.  Who is this me that is trying so hard to get out, so hard to be known?  Am I lonely?  I have Baby here with me tonight so not really lonely.  Ok maybe now I know a little more of what I'm feeling.  Baby is laying in the bed, waiting for me to come back to bed.  I think I can sleep now. 

6 comments:

sonensmilinmon said...

Sounds like one of my nights around here lately.  Hope you get some restful sleep.

Moncia

eynl said...

:)

deabvt said...

S L E E P !!
V

barbpinion said...

Hey Derek. Sorry you're not sleeping very well. I find it difficult to express my feelings sometimes too. Thought of you when I did my entry in my Hey Let's Talk journal. Right now you'd be singing your song. I think the Lord is speaking to many people's hearts right now, filling them with questions, causing them to look deep inside themselves, wanting so desperately to get that ONE-On_ ONE going. You're His. Just remember that. I see parts of HIm in your entries, your photos your words. And that's why I feel close to you. How could I Not. Love the Christ in you. Take care. Love reading what you write. {{{{Derek}}}}}  *Barb*

aiibrat said...

I hope you found good sleep.  I have the same problems...I go to bed with thoughts & wake up with the same thought.  I wish there was a purge button sometimes. -=)

judithheartsong said...

I am thinking of you. Have been away for a few days and it seems a lot has happened in my absence. Hope you got some sleep, judi