Friday, March 25, 2005

Who's Struggling Out there?

I read a lot of journals, they are all very interesting to me, many I noticed are full of struggle, even mine. I'm at a point in my life where it seems I find myself praying please, no more struggles, I shouldn't be struggling like this! But why not? I answer back. Usually I say I can hear God talking by just asking a yes or no question, but this time, the voice in my mind was saying this. Not what I wanted to hear. Maybe it's pride, not sure. I think I thought by the time I turned 37 I'd be more of where I wanted to be, and less struggling. But here I am 37, where I am supposed to be and struggling. Not a bad struggle, just the ordinary. I read other struggles much harder than mine, but with those struggles I still feel faith, I still feel strenght, and it only makes me stronger. That story comes to mind I've read so many times about the man and the cocoon of the butterfly, can't seem to find it, but I'm sure if you've read it you know what I mean. Maybe I'm just getting butterfly wings like Autumn got in her fairy tale. Sometimes the struggle is exactly what we need to become what God intends us to be. Hope everyone has a blessed weekend and a blessed Easter!


mumma4evr said...

I am 44 and still struggling iwth things I thought I would have all under control!!!

mosie1944 said...

Struggles make us stronger.  I've always felt closest to God in my trying times; that's when I pray most, read the Bible the most... when I'm needy.

deabvt said...

Hang in there. Prayers./

robinngabster said...

"God  promises a safe landing, not a calm passage."  I guess I feel we need struggles to grow...I have them too and I am just thankful for those around me that help me thru them.  xoxo

barbpinion said...

The struggling is the problem, dear one. God knows us so well. That is why He asks us to BE STILL AND KNOW I AM GOD.
To be still, means to sit quietly, to slow our breathing, to STOP struggling, to silence our minds. AND KNOW, means to be confident, sure, positive, have no doubts, that ( I AM GOD)
It requires emptying out the stress...(putting it in GOD"s hand)
It requires emptying out thoughts.....(replacing what if's and worries
                                                    ( with God's promises)

It requires placing your hand into GOD"S HAND, and believing at every
moment of your life HE'LL  not let go of it.
(((((Derek)))))   love you  *Barb*

coy1234787 said...

    I think if we did not struggle a little we might forget that we're alive! I used the struggles story you are speaking of in an entry a while back, heres the link!

                                        *** Coy ***

indigosunmoon said...

Dear sweet Derek,
Honey, I'm 43 and still struggling.
I can't even imagine a time in my
life when I haven't been.
It can be trying at times for sure.
Blessings to you this Easter weekend.

freeepeace said...

Hi Derek,  Beautifully insightful entry.  Honestly, as you say, we're all where we're supposed to be.  These questions, insights, ponderings are all part of life -- our entire life eternal.  You are exactly where you need to be.  Everything is divinely timed.  

Hey, we're the same age.  And yup, I have similar ponderings with myself and spirit, over and over again.  ;)  Happy Easter!

gbgoglo said...

It's in the struggles that we truly find God!  So, here's to struggling...Happy Easter to you and Mike.  And a Happy B.D. to Autumn!  Hugs, gloria

onestrangecat said...

hope you have a wonderful Easter


tdain2003 said...

Happy Easter a day late, Derek.  I feel the same way.... I just turned 35 and should have my sh*t together but somehow I don't... I mean I basically do but I thought I would be in a different place when I was a teenager!  ah of these days ...  I can only hope.

ecori said...

Driving around DC is a real struggle for me.  The folks here are some of the most aggressive drivers I have ever seen and they are constantly doing stupid and aggressive and dangerous things.  Its really almost more than a calm decent defensive driver can take.  

I realized a while back, that the real challenge to driving here (besides ensuring that it never becomes a contact sport) is to not internalize all the frustration I feel trying to deal with all this aggression.   The real challenge for me is to get from point A to point B without becoming angry at the experiences along the way.

I think this is so about life.  I think some form of struggle will always be there - that is part of the human condition.  The real challenge is to make peace with process itself and let it only shape you for the better, and brush off the rest.
Does that make sense?
Peace,  Virginia