Friday, April 30, 2004
My time machine (Vav Hey Vav)
Just wanted to say I'm much better today, yesterday I was visiting some old wounds, just wanted to share after my entry, I started visiting other journals and I found this one http://journals.aol.com/musenla/Amused/ , the first entry being would you erase painful memories if you could. Sometimes I think we go exactly where we are supposed too. I wouldn't erase any of my memories, bad or good, they make me who I am today. Vav Hey Vav, it's the transliteration of one of the Names of God, in the book I'm reading. It means time travel. Funny to start reading it today, with what I was going through yesterday. I opened up to this page today, it said " When we want to undo past "crimes" in order to banish their painful effects from our lives and the lives of others, this name provides us with an ingenious time travel device. Forget the Dramamine, this flight happens on a soul level. Are you ready? Fasten Your seatbelt? I was thinking yeah I'm ready. I was ready yesterday. Quantam Physics has always intrigued me. I remember as a young boy dreaming of a time machine. Well here it is, and I've had it all along. I was just going back in time it seems last night, thinking about past wounds, waking up remose for some of my past actions. Maybe by revisiting these places I can transform my past, reshape the now, and have plenty of joy and fulfillment in the future. Well let's all fasten our seat belts. I need to go sit with this one for a while. I'm glad I have the day off.