Today I woke up loving not only myself but the entire world. Walking on the beach today I found a shell, funny how this small shell grabbed me. I picked it up and made a wish on this shell. With this shell I want to make into a neckace, is my new life shell, one that will empower me to make whatever changes I need to in my life. I wrote to a friend many of these thoughts. I guess my belief's. God's Love is a given...it's not something we earn, it's not something we ever lose.. it is something we are born with and it's always with us.. The rules handed down are rules of relationship If we break God's rules we don't lose His love, we lose our trust in ourselves and our ability to believe in God.. we also lose our trust in others, we damage or desstroy our relationships. This is something I feel I've learned, not soon enought I add. I've hurt people in my lifetime, that I'm not proud of. I've also been hurt. If we break the rules of our relationship we lose each others trust.. but one never stops loving the other even if sometimes that is breifly turned to hate it is only the flip side of love and rarely ever last as hate. What lasts and what is almost impossible to repair is broken trust. God has loved us from the day we were born, He does that with every new day He gives us to live; every situation He asks us to handle; and does that with ever person He brings into our lives. I'm so thankful for all the people He's brought into my life. I truly believe that what we really are searching for in our lives is someone to whom we can say "I love you" and feel the freedom to express that, and that the person will truly love us back. Trust is so important. This is why, once I decide to make a commitment to someone it is total commitment...it is not a guarantee that God will let us be together for life, but it is a guarantee that that as long as God will let us be together I can be trusted to honor our commitments to each other. That is what I am going to be about that is the promise I made with the shell when I picked it up today. Just remember God loves you, now it's up to you to find a way to carry out your mission in life within the confines of life.